A Secret On The Side

well that was hard, and emotional, and hideous.
we sat on a bench for an hour in silence. not once did you apologise. when i walked away i thought in my head.. if this were a movie i would turn around and you would be chasing me to make it all better. but i didnt want to be dissapointed so i didn’t turn round. you chased. and you caught up. and still you didnt apologise. i asked you why you came after me, and you said you didnt want to leave things that way. then a little further on you said.. urrm bye. this is where i am getting my lift. i should of known you still dont give a shit.

not going to lie.. i have cried alot. but thats it, done now. blocked of fb and skype and you are only home until the end of july. i guess i will never see you again. and as much as that hurts. i also know that it is a good thing. i need closure and i need to move on, and heal myself from the things you have said to me.

PRINT THIS POST WORDS: 7/8/11 — 11:50am Short URL: http://tmblr.co/ZnFtSx6uADA4 Filed under: #final goodbyes #closure #moving on

ebay

be good to me. i really need to earn some money from those listings.

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My mind was a record playing at the wrong speed, spinning back over events I wanted to forget.

A Yellow Raft in Blue Water (via quote-book)

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Who do you want to be? The guy I tell my secrets to, or the one my secrets are about?

(via wordsandlyrics)

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Good mood :)

got my first year undergrad results today. hello 2:1. AWW YEAHHHHHH

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This is an important lesson to remember when you’re having a bad day, a bad month, or a shitty year. Things will change: you won’t feel this way forever. And anyway, sometimes the hardest lessons to learn are the ones your soul needs most. I believe you can’t feel real joy unless you’ve felt heartache. You can’t have a sense of victory unless you know what it means to fail. You can’t know what it’s like to feel holy until you know what it’s like to feel really fucking evil. And you can’t be birthed again until you’ve died.

Kelly Cutrone (If You Have to Cry, Go Outside: And Other Things Your Mother Never Told You)

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‘medium brown’ hairdye has come out more like ebony black. i’m kind of nervous to go out later now.. i’m not sure i like it.

7/1/11 — 2:17pm Short URL: http://tmblr.co/ZnFtSx6eoFeM Filed under: #hair dye #dark

Everybody has a secret world inside of them. All of the people of the world, I mean everybody. No matter how dull and boring they are on the outside, inside them they have all got unimaginable, magnificent, wonderful, stupid, amazing worlds. Not just one world. Hundreds of them. Thousands maybe.

Neil Gaiman (via wordsandlyrics)

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unpacking

its like mess making whilst tidying. THIS IS SO LONG.

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want to do list item number two: ride a vespa in italy

PRINT THIS POST WORDS: 6/28/11 — 4:39pm Short URL: http://tmblr.co/ZnFtSx6YUS-R Filed under: #vespa #italy #to do #want #hope #plan